Showing posts with label blessings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label blessings. Show all posts


checking off the bucket list!

y'all. i've been a weepy mess this week.
there are quite a few factors to this madness:
the anniversary of mom's death
the anniversary of granddaddy's death
mother's day
a crazy work week
college graduation

all. this. week.

needless to say, my emotions and hormones and stress level have been on overload.
poor chris had to deal with my ugly cry at dinner last night.
he knows when that lip puckers's a comin and there's no stopping it.
he saw it happening, and bless him, he said "oh no, no, no, please don't do that!"

i bawled all over the land of public places yesterday.
the post office.
the mother's day card isle at walmart.
my couch.
the dinner table.

i think i'm a bit weepy in general because a major milestone is happening this week. 
i've been working on this dang bachelor's degree for 11.5 years.
seriously...who takes that long!?

but honestly, as i reflect, i'm kind of glad. 
i don't fit into a perfect mold and for far too long i kept trying to.
it's like that toddler toy where you try to match the wooden blocks with their shapes.
and i think i've finally let go of that for a bit.

and as i reflect, it brings me back to that lovely old 30 before 30 list that i created years ago.
i have 4 months left of being 30 and i've really done a lot.
in addition to the "x" marks, i accomplished a few others:
i got that other tattoo
i went to paris
i graduated college
i ran part of a 5k - that counts right?
i had those 30 days of quiet time with God - it was actually 42.

in all reality, i'm pretty proud of the things i have done in these 30 years.
it's been nothing short of adventurous.
i've lived in 3 states, moved 14 times.
we kind of go where the wind takes us.
we've traveled.
we've had fun.

and now, quite honestly, i'm a bit more excited for the next 30 years.
at some point, you have to stop desiring God's path for other people and embrace the one He has for you.

so to God, I say "let's do this."


9 whole years.

today, hubby and i are celebrating 9 whole years of wedded bliss!

9 years. that just seems so grown up.
i guess we're are 100% no longer newlyweds!

this 9 year ride has definitely been full of ups and downs, struggles, heartache, happiness and love.
but that's what marriage is all about right?
standing beside one another through it ALL.

we struggled with issues in our first two years of marriage that many people never face.
and we survived....together.

i'm pretty sure in the back of people's minds, they thought we'd never make it.
we dated 2 months, got engaged, and married 5 months later.
to do the math, we knew each other 7 whole months before jumping into marriage.
and it was the best leap of faith i've ever made!

we've traveled so many places together...and somehow miraculously cheap!
we've truly done life with one another.
and for that i am so grateful.

i'm so thankful that our marriage started out with Jesus in the middle and that's where He still remains.
i'm thankful that this husband of mine loves me equally at my best and my worst.

i'm thankful that when we finally do have children, that chris and i will have a solid foundation and that we really got to experience time with each other before kids.

i'm thankful for our story. how it started, how it progressed, and how it will end in the future.
i'm thankful for how God has used us, and for the plans He has to use us even more.


i'm thankful that nothing has been handed to us and that we have worked hard for everything we have.
we know how to hustle lol.

i simply love "us".

we are as perfect of match for one another as one could possibly be.
that God....hmpfh - He sure knows what He's a doin.

and i'm so glad that He does. 
i'm blessed beyond measure by the love in my marriage.

happy anniversary babe.
i loveth you.


the beauty of love.

i ran across this video the other day on Two Hoots & a Holler.
it is by far one of the most beautiful stories i've ever seen.
it's no secret that adoption does something serious to my heart.
i want to partake in it more and more each day.
do yourself a favor and spend the next 6 minutes watching this.
I can only hope that i may be able to show the love of Christ in just a fraction compared to these people.
it's intense. and your mascara will run. but it will be worth it.


The Weekend Is Almost Over!

Ah yes, it's Sunday. Such a sad day for me. Sundays always make me realize that Monday is just a few hours away! But, I must say church was great today! We're going back in a couple of hours to see the band Revive. Let me just say they are awesome!!!

Anyway, Friday night was some much needed fun! Heather, Chris and I went to Cagle's Dairy for the Corn Maize. I had never been before, so it was definitely interesting. We went through the maze, went on a hayride and roasted marshmallows at the bonfire. Lots o fun!

So onto something a little more serious. Chris and I have always had a huge heart for ministry. However, after getting hurt a few times (and hurt from a church is the worst), it has been really hard to pick up the pieces and find the place God is leading us. For the past 4 years, we have said, "God, if only we had fewer bills, we would be able to serve you in a full time capacity". Well guess what? We literally only have 3 bills right now. For the past few months we have been looking at our situation with a negative spin. But a couple of weeks ago, it hit very clearly that all of this is a blessing. Because we have got rid of everything, we can truly go WHEREVER it is that God is calling us. We know without a shadow of a doubt that God is working in our lives and I absolutely can not wait to see where He's leading us. Through all of this I have probably drifted farther than I've ever been from God since I got saved. While everything was crumbling around me, it made it very hard to know that good would come of it (though deep down I knew it would). But now, I'm back in the swing of things. I just feel so at peace now, knowing that we are in a position to do what God has planned for us to do all along.....serve Him with all that is in us.