yesterday i mentioned that my heart was in need of a revival of sorts.
sometimes i just feel like i need someone to press my reset button.
i'm really kind of in a funk. so when i looked up the exact definition of revival, i knew that it was exactly what my soul needed.


restoration to life, consciousness, vigor, strength, etc.

do you ever feel like you need that? a restart? like i think i'm in a place where i need a hard reboot. you know like when your laptop is frozen, so you can't do a proper shutdown, but instead just have to force it off? yep, that's what i need.

i feel like i've just kind of been existing lately, without any impact on anything.
i feel defeated in a lot of ways, and dreams i once had feel like they will never be a reality. like every possible option is road blocked.
it's a season of not knowing where i belong; where i fit. that is probably one of the worst feelings ever.
a lost identity of sorts.

some days i real feel like i've overcome, and then some days it's like i took a million steps backward.
ever have days like that?

all i know is that i really don't like it.
not one bit.
i hope that this is just the winter season for my soul and with spring, new things will be born in me.
i definitely need some bursts of color.


  1. Girl you have so much purpose just being there for me! You are the sweetest most awesome girl/cus i know and you inspire me everyday.

  2. It is so hard to be in this space. I love that you shared the definition of revival...restoration of life! The hardest thing for me is knowing whether I should restore my hope in something I once loved or start something new. I can definitely relate to this post.

  3. I hope that your spirits lift and you get your revival. Hugs!

  4. I know exactly what you mean. And I hope you get your revival soon! Hugs, hugs, hugs.

    Following along with you now :)

  5. SUCH a hard place to be... (I know, I've been there before, and we are there right now.) Something that helps me is to take your analogy a little further and remember that the fallow time of winter is absolutely necessary for bursts of color and growth in the spring. Somehow it helps to feel that there is purpose in the seemingly purpose-less time!

  6. First, BIG HUGE HUGS!!!! You're so sweet!!
    I'm your newest follower!!! Hope you follow back!